Search for a true love

by Ija

PEtra left home because she weantred to do some shopping in the city and therefore she decided to use the public transport and went to the tram stop. But on her way she forgot to také an umbrella and was pretty angry abvout that weather and terrible time and much worse afternoon.

Wet and tired she quickly managed to find a free seat and was looking forward to the 30 minutes long journey in the tram home. She was really looking forward to have a bath and rest in it for a long time. First ten minutes were okay but then she heard a crash and the drives squeezed the brakes...She heard him screaming, opening the door and running out.

When he didnt come in again in a minute ahe went to see what is on, what she saw almost made her fall down. There has been an accident with somebody. But she knew the person, it was Patrick Kelly. She couldnt move at first but then she found courage to get out to help. The driver was just calling for help. He seemed to be breathing so they waited untill the ambulance. She took his bag he was wearing and told the doctor that she was his friend and wanted to go with them. He agreed maybe because he didnt know what kind of person he was.

The ambulance arrived to the hospital, and Petra jhad to wait in the corridor, hoping and praying for him to be allright. Finally the doctor came out and she asked how he is. He answered: "He is a foreigner, do you know?" She replied: "Yes, I know that......" He then asked: "Are you his family?" Susanne shooked his head: "No, but he is a very dear person to me." He only nodded and so she continued: "What happened to him?" The doctor looked at her and saw tears in her eyes. So he took her to the doctor´s room and explained: He has the right leg broken and a few ribs broken but the worst is the he is in unconsciousness. We didnt manage to wake him up and we dont know when he will awake."

She was shocked to hear what the doctor had said. She had to sit down on the chair the doctor offered. He watched her and said: "He must be very dear to you...I can see but please dont say anybody that I had really told you this. According to the law, we can say his health condition only to the members of his family....." Then he thought: "Arent you at least his fiancee or somthing like that?" Petra looked from the tears: "No, Iam not. Did you inform his family?" The doctor answered: "No, actually we didnt find any contact to them....Do you know them?" To his surprise she agreed: "They dont know me personally but I know who they are so I ll let them know." He only said: "OK,if they want to arrive, send them please to me. I am his doctor."

With those words he opened the door and let them both go out and Petra had one more question: "Doctor, do you think I could be there in the room with him? Please...." He couldnt see her desperate look, she was so worried about the man... so he allowed her to stay in his room.

She was very thankful and went to the room where Patrick slept. She brought a chair inside and sat down. She was watching him as he was peacefully sleeping. He was completely white in the face and his hands were cold. She didnt know what to do, just sat there, watched him and thought about everything that happenned. Then she saw his little bag that she had in the hands. She dared to open it and she found some papers full of notes and lyrics and then a bottle of water and a little mobile phone.

She was still afraid to touch his phone, it is so private to také somebodys phone. She found out the numbers of his family in the list of numbers, she didnt know how to call them. Shall she choose one number and didnt know if she should use her own phone. But she was sure that if she took her own mobile, they might not answer it because they might think that somebody is bothering them.

She tried Angelos number then because he was on the top of the list. She dialed the number and after a moment she heard a male voice which sounded so familiar: : "hey borther what is going on, dont you have a better time to call?" She was so shocked and said: "It is not Paddy , I am sorry but please dont hang up..." On the other sight she could feel the surprise, Angelo weas curious: "Could you please tell me who are you and how did oyu get to Paddys phone?Are you his new girlfriend?" Petra responded quickly: "No, I am not, but I found Paddys mobile in the bag he had. I am calling you to tell that there has been an accident and Paddy is now in the hospital....." He shouted: "what? How did this happen?Is he okay?" sHe told him: "He was crossing the street and didnt notice the arriving tram. He has broken some ribs and a leg but he is still asleep, they dont know how to wake him up." He heard a cry in her voice: "And tell me please who are you?Thank you for reporting me what happenned. I am thankful to you, otherwise we wouldnt know...." Petra didnt know what to say: "Well, we dont know each other. I was in the travelling in the tram home and when I saw what happenned I decided to go to the hospital with the doctors. Paddy means a lot to me, I wanted to help. But I am not your fan, I just love the music, that is where it starts and ends....That is the truth." She just expected an angry reaction, but he was glad talking to a normal person who worried about his brother: "thank you for being so sincere, it means a lot for me, but I cant ask you to stay there, you certainly have your own duties in your home..." Susanne wiped nthe tears from her eyes: "no, please, dont send me away, I would so much wish to stay here. Nothing is more important for me now." He agreed: "Okay, I will go to phone my family and we will try to arrive as soon as possible. Bye and thank you again." He hang up and she had to calm down because she was so worrying about him.

It was almost night and she had to call home and tell them what has hapenned. She decided to stay in the hospital even thorough the night. She bought something to eat and returned back to the room. But she couldnt think aobut the dinner, her mind was all with Paddy and she was watching him and praying he would wake up soon. She took her hand and started to talk to him, just saying any sentences, some of them were just describing the place where he was, the beauty of the Czech republic and all things that appeared on her mind.

She didnt know what to do ,he didnt react at all, none of his muscles had moved, he was in a deep sleep, she was still holding his hand and after midnight she fell asleep in but still holding his hand.

When she woke up, it was almost 3 am and the lamp in the room was still on. At first she didnt know what she was doing in the hospital but then she remembered all what had happenned. She looked again on Paddy but he did t react. He was still sleeping, there was a little CD player in the room, she put there a new CD of her favorite singer that she has just bought, it included a CD singl of the main song of the CD. She took it from the box and put it on...a slow romantic song spread through the room and Petra still listened to it and tried to think about all that was sang it the beautiful song. She suddenly felt sorry of everything that had happened and wished all would be okay again. She wished to change the role with Paddy. She would be rather if he was feeling well again and was on the stage again to make other thousands of people happy. She couldnt imagine how but she started to talk aloud...:

" Patrick, I know you dont know me, but I hope that you can hear me. I found you, and I wanted to help you, actually I have always wished to help you, but never thought of any situation like this. I wish you to be happy and satisfied again as you used to be. I would like to see that lovely smile which can make people happy and give them the new energy. If you only knew how much you mean to me, we have never talked together but you have saved my life many times. Everytime when I was down, and thought that there is no way on, you through your songs have always showed me the way to go on, not to give up and I am very grateful for that. I wish I could tell you straight to the eyes, but I dont know if I would find the courage, because from a certain point I think that I am not brave, I know each of us has its own problems, they are all of the same importance, maybe it is better that you dont see and hear me, because at least you dont think anything bad about me. Even I would like to know what you are thinking about now. If I could only be at your place so that I wouldnt have to worry about your life, it takes all my heart and breaks it to pieces......all the fear....if only you finally woke up and gave me a little more relief." She felt the tears in the eyes but continued talking: "Hey, man, you should be brave, and fight, at least somebody should fight, if I didnt ..... but I beleve you can do it, I pray for it.... Can you hear the music man? I really like this song...it is full of romance but it doesnt give anything out, it isnt written from the heart. That is what I miss at other songs, only from your songs I can feel the beautifulness and feelings from the heart. They can touch so deeply. Please come back to us, there are many people who need you, your family, friends, maybe your girlfriend, the fans and ........if I can count myself among the people even though you dont know anything about me........, and who would save my life again if I felt on the bottom and didnt know that you would be always there for me even only through your songs.....you are so dear to me....if you only knew how much all you do means to me..." She cried harder, her tears fell of the face and she lay head on his bed and cried silently again. She could feel his breath and the beautiful closeness of the man who was everything for her. The music still played, the song again and again......

She doesnt know how long she was crying and sobbing over him again then she sat down to the bed and closed her eyes. She only listened to the beautiful song which must have been playing for almost thirtieth time that night.

But she needed to listen to it again and again, it gave her feeling of feeling a little bit better, she started to sing softly only for herself after she stopped crying, Then she laid the head again on his bed and wanted to fall asleep a little bit, it was almost 4 am and still no improvement, but then she could feel warmth on the head, she thought first she was sleeping and already dreaming but then she realised it again.....she slowly sat down again and was looking into Paddys opened eyes....it was the most sincere look she has ever seen. She smiled unsurely and said: "Hi...."

He smiled also and and asnwered: "hi....you were so nicely talking.....I have never heard so many things at once...." She was embarassed: "How long have you been awake?" He replied: "First I heard a beautiful song and then I could hear somebody talking.....It was nice to hear all that you have said....so many sincere things to a stranger....you dont know at all....." She looked up to him: "It doesnt matter....I am thankful to you for so much in my life ....and for being grateful I dont need to know your whole personality...that is just your own thing and I dont have any right to intervene...and I would never do that......"

Paddy then watched her and asked: "What has hapenned? I dont remember anyting..." Petra smiled and told him everything that hapenned and added: "They were afraid that you wouldnt wake up...I am so glad they were wrong, after you got here I called your family so that they might be already on the way to you here. I only had to use your mobile phone for which I apologise..." He shooked the head: "No, you dont need to apologise, I understand....indeed, it is me who should thank you.... for everything you have done for me so far, and also that you sit with me...I really appreciate that..." She looked straight into his eyes...: "I am here because I want to be here, nobody forced me to. I just felt that I have to help you to give you back what you give me through your songs...at times when I needed it rthe most..." He smiled so beautifully that her heart was jumping: "I know...you have already told me, even though you claimed that you wouldnt do it straight into the eyes...you did it, it is brave....and also nice..." She saw that it was hard to speak for him and therefore said: "You shouldnt waste the rest of the power you still have on speaking..." He smiled again: "you are right...I feel so weak , I will have a little rest now, but promise me only one thing...Will you stay here when I am awake again? I would like to tell you so many things. Please, dont leave.." She surprisinly looked at him but already promised: "Ok, I will stay, I promise....." He showed a satisfied look and fell asleep again.

She was thinking about what has happenned and was happy to meet him and she wished to scream it to the all world sides that he was awake again. She sat back to the chair and fell asleep. By the way she realised that he even didnt ask for her name, she took the CD out with the beautiful song and put the CD single into his bag. She only took the whole album. Then she fell asleep......

In the morning when she woke up, she saw a couple of doctors and nurses running around his bed. She didnt know what was going on and asked the doctor she had talked with the previous day for explanations. He only said: "There were some problems but now it is okay again." She felt the relief: "But he was awake, doctor, I could speak with him.....is he better now?" He looked at her: "This is impossible, he couldnt be awake, it must have been a dream, miss, because he is still in coma..." He had left and she called to him: "No, it wasnt, I was awake, I swear...." And sat down in crying......then she stopped and watched Paddy sleeping again. She knew it wasnt a dream, in the dream he wouldnt have touched as beautifully as he did...

She sat there the whole morning and then she heard a knock on the door, she looked up from daydreaming and watched Angelo who entered the room. He was followed by Patricia and Joey. Petra greeted them nicely and they answered. She introduced herself to them and they all shoke her hand. Angelo asked: "We have already spoken to the doctor but he was claiming that you claimed he was awake." Petra agreed: "Yes, it is true, I woke up and I heard him talking and he was talking with me and wanted me to promise that I would stay here untill he wakes up." Patrcia watched her talking and then added: "It was great that you were here with him even if you didnt have to be and we are very grateful for that....but now we have talked to a doctor that we wish to také him to a hospital in Cologne. It is close to us and it is better equipped hospital, he will get the care that he needs...." PEtra was very sad by what Patricia said but didnt let them see anything in her face. She didnt know what to tell anymore and therefore she took her bag and told them all said good bye to all of them. Angelo had added a hug and whispered: "Thank you for caring of our Paddy and letting me know what happened......you are always welcome with us.-...." She could only smile and then she left.

She was so sad from that all, she already started to believe that Paddy was alright and now it looks like everything is the same. She took out her mobile phone and wante dto phone her best friend from school but then she relaised that it would be the best to keep it secret.

In the afternoon when she arrived home she looked to various Kelly pages but nobody seemed to know yet that something like that happened. She felt sad, for the first time of her life, she felt the heart full of love, she thought before that her feeling to Paddy wasnt love at all, but instead, empathy and sorrow but now she knew that the feeling went through a big change and she realised that she had fallen in love with this guy with whom she had talked for about 15 minutes, but even these few minutes meant so much to her. His sincere smile, she knew that these smiles he showed her, werent the same that she had seen on some Backstage pictures of some fans.

She thought about him everyday day, how he was going, if he was already okay, the fans claimed that he was taken to the hospital in Cologne and that he still remained in the uncousciousness. She prayed every day for him to be awake again. But she didnt have better news. She knew he was having the CD from her. She neither had a phone number on Angelo and coudnt therefore ask them anywhere because they had cancelled all the concerts of the remaining Tour.

She was crying almost everyday....she wanted Paddy feel better....but let nobody know what has happened. She was gone only for two days and yet the days when she was alone at home so that nobody from her family could notice anything. Then on one day when she came home from school, she opened the internet again and one happy fan wrote there that Paddy was awake again. That they said it on a press conference for TV. He has been asleep for almost 3 months now.

She could feel the tears of happiness for him..........

Meanwhile in Cologne:

Paddy opened his eyes and looked around himself and still murmured : "Where is she? She had promised me to wait....." Patrcia, who was sitting at his bed surprisingly looked at him: "Paddy......you are finally awake....I am so happy so see you again?" She happily hugged him and then noticed his questions...: "You mean the girl from the Czech republic? Paddy, this happened 3 months ago....So what she said, was true. She was really talking with you that night. None of the doctors believed her. They thought it wasnt possible." Paddy stared at her: "3 months? And where is she now?" Patricia told him the truth: "I dont know, Paddy. She was sitting at your bed when we arrived to the hospital and when we wanted to také you back to Germany, she looked really sad. She didnt want to let anybody know it but I could see it in her eyes. They were full of tears...She said good bye and left home."

Paddy asked: "Didnt she call or leave a message or something? Patricia shooked the head: "I am sorry, Paddy, it went all so fast.... She might not have realised that she didnt have any contact to us, because Angelo told her that she was always welcome with us."

Patricia could see disappointment in his eyes but she didnt know how to help him. She proposed: "What about to make a little show in the Czech republic, maybe she would come.....when you feel better, we could make something like that, dont you think?....." He shooked his head: "No I dont think she would come, she wasnt a FAN of us and I cant endanger her by callingout one girl´s name there. There may be people who know her. But I even didnt ask her name...." Patricia was thinking...: "I know she was introducing to us but you know....I have forgotten it already, it has been almost 3 months..."

Paddy was really sad from the moment he woke up. His sibllings saw it but they didnt even know how to help him....In the three weeks time Paddy was allowed to go back to his home. He was still thinking about her, he almost stopped believing in really seeing her, she was so distant, when he got back to his flat, Maite was already there, she agreed to také care of him in the following weeks and he was really grateful for it. He wasnt alone and didnt have to think about her. He desired to meet her again and thank her for all. In his bedroom he found the little bag he had with him during the visit in Prague. He took it and wanted to look on the notes that he had given there before the accident.

He put his hand into the bag and took out something.....it was the CD that Petra had given him to the bag during the stay in the hospital. He yelled out happily and put the CD into the CD player in the bedroom. Maite was in the living room watching TV when she heard music playing really loud and in some strange language and yet Paddy screaming. She got up quickly and saw Paddy sitting on his bed listening to it with tears in his eyes.....

"What has happened, Paddy? Does something hurt you?" He wiped the tears and answered: "No, I am okay...only my heart hurts me, I found this CD in my bag....it was the song which she played to me to make me feel better during which I woke up. It is such a beautiful song even though I cant understand a single word...Now I know that it wasnt a dream, she was real and I have to find her......."

2 months later:

Paddy recovered very well and pretty fast and although the rest of the group wanted to wait untill he feels okay again but Paddy wanted on stage again to be able to search vfor her in the audience. They made shows for people in small clubs and they were having fun, except Paddy, every evening he was watching if there isnt any fan who looked like she did.

He wore the CD with him and listened to the song many times a day......he was thankful to her, she even didnt know him but went with him and stayed with him the whole night crying upon his bed.

Finally he had an idea, he took the Cd player and the CD inside and went into ther backstage where waited the fans among whose were also the Czech girls. He came to them and said: "I know you want photos from me and autographs, it is okay today, but before, I would need somebody from you, Czech guys, to listen to this and tell me the name of the female singer of this song." They agreed happily and borrowed Paddys CD player and listened to it, they thought about it and when all of them listened to it and one of them said: "It is for 100 percent our female singer, who sometimes sings in the musicals. Her name is Monika ... and this is her new single, I have bought it last week....a beautiful song." Paddy wrote the name on a piece of paper, because it was pretty long surname of her.

Then he asked: "Could you please write here on the paper the translation of this?...." The Czech fans were happy to be given such a pleasure for Paddy and they did it. He was really excited when he could read the whole lyrics in the language he understood. As a gift he gave to those five fans the backstage cards.

He really loved the text, it was so nice and he still sang at least the melody of it. It was so wonderful, after the show he went to the internet trying to find the name of the female singer, because he thought that this singer may have a fanclub and maybe this was a chance to ask if somebody knows her. In two days the first part of the tour was over and Paddy chose to go to see the concert of this singer, which should také place in Prague.

He told about the idea to Patricia and she agreed with that. So he went to Prague and all the day he was walking through the town to search for her. In the evening he bought the tickets to the club where the singer was supposed to be on stage. She arrived on time having a great romantic show...Paddy at that time wanted so much to be happy and find her...he was looking around himself if he wont see her, but he didnt have luck. But then he heard the singer to sing their common favorite song.....he felt tears in his eyes....people were moving to the rhytm and enjoyed the special moment.

After it the singer went among the people to talk. Paddy didnt want to lose a chance and he ran to her : "Miss?" She turned around surprised by a young man talking to her in English... : "Yes? Oh, no ....you must be Paddy Kelly, am I right?" Paddy smiled: "yes, you were really great,....I have a lot to learn from you..." She gave him a nice look and said: "it is a pleasure for me to see you here, I know your music, can I help you somehow?" Paddy nodded and explained her the situation. She answered: "The head of my fan club knows such person, I only knew her a few weeks ago she came with him backstage and wanted and autograph from me. She was all in white clothing...yes I do remember her....and the leader of the club told me that she loved the music of the Kellys.....and that one of them may have already my CD at home..."

Paddy was so happy inside....she knows her, he needs to find the man who has certainly her phone number.... He asked: "and could you please ask the leader of the club to tell me her address or the phone number? Please, I have been searching for her for many months...." She smiled and took her phone number and called him. He was in the club and came closer to them......

He looked amazingly: "Oh , I cant believe I meet Paddy Kelly, if there were one friend of mine, she would be totally happy......" Paddy ran into his speech: "You know her? Please where is she? I have to talk to her, I have been looking for her for almost half a year...please you are my last hope." The leader wondered: "okay I can help you ,she will be very happy to see you...She couldnt come because she is at school right now...." Paddy agreed: "Could you please tell me where she stays....." He disagreed: "You know what .....in two days you do have the show in this club so I ll make sure she arrives here, it will be surprise for her. ... actually she doesnt speak with me right now...." Paddy asked: "Why ?" The leader answered: "Oh, nothing special, only one of our favourite political discussions were a bit hard this time.......but dont worry it will be okay again, but I have a chance to make peace again and bring her to your concert okay? I am sorry but I have to go now...Bye guys" He turned around and left.

Paddy agreed, there is a concert in the club of himself with his group that he organised during the last two days in Prague. He was glad that the club was free......

Meanwhile the leader came to school to Petra, she was just reading nhis message that they need to meet because it is urgent. She saw him and waved, he said: "Would you ever save somebodys life?" Petra didnt know what to say, so she answered: "yes, once I did and believe me that the two days spent with this person broke my heart completely. I dont want this to happen again." He smiled: "No it wont happen, believe me." Shew didnt know what he meant by saying that: "Why are you so secret tonight?" He looked at her: "Because I have a surpise for you....Monika is making one more show tomorrow and she wants you to come to see it....."

Petra was surprised to heart the great news and was really looking forward to see Monika and to hear her new wonderful songs, especially the one.....And then he added: "One more thing, please dress up nicely because we are invited into a dinner afterwards..." She laughed and agreed to do what he asked for...

On the following day she prepared one of her best clothing, because it was pretty cold outside, she decided fothe white two piece suit and and made a special hair- cut to look nice for the dinner. She waited for 20 minutes before the man called that he will pick her up in the tram. She agreed and closed the flat to arrive to the station. Then they travelled by tram to the club. And when they were entering the club he mentioned: "And I forgot to inform you about an important change...." She looked him but he only smiled and sent her inside.... Then said bye and left.

Petra went downstairs to the club and heard the scream of some girls, everybody were sitting on the chairs and in the third row in the middle was the only free place. She looked to the ticket she got from the fanclub leader and it was the place waiting for her. After thirty minutes of waiting the show was on...she at first didnt know the people because most of them were from Germany and she didnt catch a word.

Then she heard a counting and somebody started to play drums....then she heard the first tones of Money making machine,.......it was a shock for her, she had to sit down for a few minutes and it made Paddy think that she might have not come when he didnt see her there. Then she stood up and danced with others but couldnt look at him directly because she knew he would be looking for her.

But then she sat down again and thought a lot, no this wasnt certainly an incident, this must have been planned, and she started to realise that this wasnt neither Monika´s nor The club leader, but only Paddy´ s one. He might have been to crazy to be able to do such a plan. Then her mind told her that he must have been searching for her all the months. Although she had promised to be with him when he awakes and didnt fulfill the promise. She had tears in her eyes, she didnt relaise at first that he tried to do this all to find her, to meet her again.

She stood up finally and enjoyed with other fans, she waved to him and then saw how his face brightened up when he saw her.....at the moment he was singing When you sleep and he looked already satisfied that he found her finally. Then other songs from his solo CD followed. Right before the end he said: "This song I would like to dedicate to a person who saved my life once like a fairy but then disappeared and I have been searching for her for many months and today I have already found her again. This song is only for you my dearest unknown lady....." And he started to sing the song that she played him on CD in the hospital....and he sang it in Czech...she didnt know what to say...she remained just speechless....she couldnt find the right words....

Finally the show was over and she still sat on the chair and didnt know what to say..... She was thinking about the whole show and what will happen afterwards, the crew started to clean up the stage and pack all the stuff there but none of them wanted her to leave, she sat on a free chair to a table and sat there.

Then she heard moves behind her. She just turned around and saw that Paddy was standing there. He was so handsome and beautifully good looking and was smiling so sincerely. She never thought that one of his real smiles could ever belong to her. She stood up and ran to his open arms.......just without words, because she was still speechless, he closed his arms and they were just standing silently one perceiving the another and enjoying the beautiful moment of being together.......

PEtra looked up to see his face and caressed it gently: "I am glad that you are all right again." He agreed: "Yes... Iam, thanks to you.....when I was in Germany, I didnt have such a perfect care as I had from you....." She smiled: "Do not exaggerate please ...... I just didnt know what to do then, so I talked..." He added to her: "SO sincerely to me and I could hear all at that time.....I was already awake and was listening to your beautiful sentences, full of confessing and telling the truth.....I loved it." NO answer from her. She didnt know that he could hear it all, she thought he heard only a piece of it. She smiled: "My name is Petra...."

Paddy stopped and kissed her gently and then he said : "Nice to meet you Petra, My name is Patrick...." She was completely out of herself, she was still thinking about the beauty of the kiss and of being in his arms all the time, she gave the head on his shoulder and she said: " iam sorry I couldnt fill up my promise because your family wanted to také you back to Germany and I couldnt go there with you and at home I realised that I dont have your number, So I was watching the internet daily again to find out about you...."

Paddy caressed her hand: "I understood it but when I woke up I decided that I would find you, but it took me a long time to make up a plan of how to find you.....but I guess that now there is the opportunity to fulfill your promise....." She looked up to him and asked: "Now?" He agreed and kissed her again: "You promised me to stay with me when I wake up.....and I am asking you .....would you stay with me as my girlfriend?" She looked with anguish in her voice: "But Paddy, I used to be your fan before, I thought you dont want to date a former fan...." He hugged her closely: "but in the hospital you werent only as a fan but as an unusual caring person willing to help somebody you didnt know at all. It was so unselfish of you and all that you told me I also apperciate and after knowing this all my heart fell in love with you, my little alien from the neighbourhood country......" She smilled to him and whispered happily to his ear: "I love you Patrick, more than anything else and I wish to be with you, too." And they both could see the happiness in each others face....They were finally together and the future was only theirs. And the question remains: Was it really an accident or incident?

The end

© Ija


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