Paddy's life in 15 years
When you read this you have to forget Paddy as he is today. We're going to take look at Paddy's future…

Paddy was sitting by a lake in Ireland together with a little girl and a little boy. They'd been swimming and the children had just put on their clothes when their mother came.
- Hi Nora, Nicholas and Paddy. What have you been up to today ?
- We've been swimming, honey, said Paddy. He smiled and looked up at his beautiful wife, Maria Helena. Paddy preferred to use the name Crazygirl. He was 37 now and his wife was 32.

You may wonder ; how did they meet each other ? Well, here's the story:

THE LOVE OF PADDY'S LIFE

They'd met in Italy, but she wasn't Italian, she was from one of the Nordic countries. Maria Helena had studied history and Latin in Rome. Paddy had been on vacation in Rome and he stayed in a hotel, not far from her tiny apartment. He had noticed her several times, but he never got the chance to talk to her because she was so quiet and always was in a hurry.
One day he finally got the chance to talk to her. She'd missed her bus, and was standing nearby the hotel as Paddy came. He noticed that she looked sad.
- Hi, what are you doing here ? he asked.
- Nothing, I missed my bus, she said.
- Would you like to come with me to a cafeteria ?, he asked ,while looking at her brown dress which showed her perfect body.
- I`d love to, but I miss my class, she said sad.
- Just for today ? he asked.
- OK, she said very quiet.
He found his car and he drove to his favourite cafeteria, "Carlos`".
Maria Helena was looking at him. She couldn't stop looking at his eyes ; they were dark blue, and she thought about all the secrets that those eyes could hide. He turned on the car-stereo and put a CD with powerful Spanish music. She thought it was cool.
- What are you doing in Rome ? he suddenly asked.
- I study history and Latin, and you ?
- I'm here on vacation.
He drove into a parkinglot.
As they walked to "Carlos`", Maria Helena looked at him in secret.
She didn't notice that he was looking at her. She thought about so much. Paddy noticed that she was wearing a necklace with a cross.
- Beautiful necklace, he said.
- Thanks. It reminds me about my best friend.
- Why ? he asked curious.
- She isn't with us anymore. She's in heaven, she said very sad. She died at the age of 16.
- Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that. My mother is in Heaven too. He said while looking up at the sky as they walked into the cafeteria.
They found a table and ordered cafe au lait. They talked about everything while sitting at the table. Paddy couldn't take his eyes from her. Maria Helena looked at his darkblue eyes. To Maria Helena they were shining like a bright star, and her heart was beating. Suddenly she took his hands in hers.
- Do you think what I'm thinking ? she asked.
- I think so, he answered. I have to get it out Maria Helena ; I love
you so much.
- I love you too, my dear. But don't you think this is a bit crazy, I mean ; we hardly know each other. Though I have to admit that I love boys who do unexpected things. It's hard to find boys like that.
- So…You like me ? Paddy asked shy. Maria Helena looked him deep in the eyes and said : " I love you Paddy. I really do. " Then she gave him a soft kiss on the lips.

Paddy and Maria Helena ended up spending each day with each other. Paddy picked her up everyday after the class, and he helped her with her studies.
One day as Paddy had picked her up, he gave her some yellow and white roses. He knew that she wasn't very found of red roses because it was so usual, so he decided to give her something different. It was a card with the roses, saying : "Crazygirl, I love you so much. Lots of love from Paddy. "
- Crazygirl ? she asked. Why not Maria Helena.
- To me you are a crazy girl, that's why. You're not like any other girls I've met in my life.
- Wow ! All the other boyfriends I have had thought I was too wild for them. Some of them meant that I should act more like a girl, but I'm myself, and I can't be any other person.
- I love you because you're yourself. It's so many girls who pretends to be someone else, but that's what has made my relationships difficult.
- Love can sometimes be very difficult, she said as they drove to the hotel were Paddy stayed.

When they came to Paddy's room in the 3rd floor , gave he her a kiss on the lips. They closed their eyes, and Maria Helena thought for a moment that she was in Heaven. Then Paddy stopped kissing her and walked fast into his room together with her.
They sat down on the coach and relaxed. Paddy went to the bathroom for a moment, and then he started to read a book about Holocaust, while Maria Helena practised her Latin loudly.

After a while they went for a walk on the beach.They were holding hands and talking about a lot of things. Maria Helena was looking at him and she felt that they were meant for each other.
Suddenly she asked : "Paddy,why don't we get married today ? "
- TODAY ? Paddy was in shock. We have known each other for five weeks!
- It was just an idea ,dear. I love you very much, and I`d love to give birth to our children.
- Children ? Are you also thinking about children ? Wow, we were really meant for each other.
- Honey, you're the only one I want in the whole world. There's no other person I want to spend the rest of my life with. You're the only one, she said to him. He gave her a kiss.

Later that night were they having a wedding. Only the priest and themselves knew it ! Their families didn't know.
They called their families a couple of weeks after the wedding from the airport, after they'd been on their honeymoon in Asia. Paddy called from his mobilephone, it was Patricia who answered : "Paddy! How nice that you're calling. We were wondering why you didn't call us the last two weeks."
- To tell you the truth Patricia ; I've married the love of my life.
- You've what ?!? Patricia was shocked. Hey, you're kidding. Aren't you ?
- No, sis. I'm not kidding ; it's the truth. Could you please tell the others ? he asked.
- OK, little bro. I`ll call you later, but I want to know everything, OK ?
- Sure. You'll all get to meet her in a couple of days. Bye Tricia.
Then he hung up.
Maria Helena's parents were happy for her, but they thought she was a bit too young ; she was 23. They also thought that she and Paddy should have been together a bit longer, before they took this step. Maria Helena didn't care ; Paddy was the person she loved.

Paddy and Maria Helena went to Germany after a couple of days in Italy. Paddy had been constantly thinking about what his family would think about his young wife.
In Gymnisch were the whole family waiting for them. They'd made his room nice with roses beside his bed, and Barby had made some lovely aquas she'd put up on his wall. Paddy was suprised ; he'd never
expected this. Maria Helena was also suprised. She looked around in the room, and it was so beautiful. "Congratulations, Paddy. I knew you would find a girl one day to marry, but so fast ? You're lucky", said Maite. "I hope you'll live happy together "
"Thanks. I love her more than words can ever say", said Paddy smiling. Then he kissed his wife.
"We`re so happy to meet you. Paddy has written to us and told us about you ", said John's wife Maite.
"I'm so happy for you." "You are ? ", Maria Helena was pretty suprised of the reaction. " Maite and Maite, you're really supporting us,aren`t you ?" "Yes, we are girl, but I don't know if the boys are.
Angelo was pretty shocked, Jimmy thought it was a joke, Adam handled it very well, Joey didn't know what he should believe, and Paddy, Mapa is supporting you."

The boys came into their room. Paddy was looking like a sad puppy as they entered the room. "Girls, do you think we could have a talk with Paddy. It's important", Angelo said.
The girls left the room. Angelo had a lot of things to say : "Paddy, why the hell do you marry a girl after FIVE weeks ? What made you do this ? "
- Love, Paddy said quiet. Love. I love this girl. Why aren't you happy for me ?
- It's hard for us to handle. You're married after knowing a girl for about a month, Angelo was sad. Do you really love her ?
- I love her ! LEAVE ME ALONE !!! Joey, Angelo, Adam and Jimmy, LEAVE ME ALONE !!! He was really mad.They left the room while shaking their heads.

Meanwhile were the girls in the livingroom. They were talking about the boys`immature reaction. "Why did they react like that ?" Maria Helena was wondering. "I love Paddy, but they don't seem to like to have a brother who's happy."
- I think it's because no one in this family has married so spontaneously before, Barby said.
- John and I have known each other the whole life. We married after being together for three years, said Maite.

Paddy was lying in his bed, thinking about his girl. He wished the boys would understand. John wasn't home at the moment, so he didn't know what his opinion was. Maybe he should ask Maite. She could maybe tell him what John thought about it.
Paddy was tired. He was lying on his bed, and suddenly was he falling asleep.

Maria Helena went up to Paddy's room after she'd talked with the girls. She'd seen the boys in the garden, so she knew Paddy was alone in his room. The first thing she saw as she walked into the room, was Paddy lying on the bed ; sleeping. He looked like a little child.Maria Helena imagined how he looked like as a child. It made her smile. To her he sometimes was a child. He was older than her, but he was childish in a way she coulndn`t describe. 28 years, it didn't matter to her. To her he was a child.
She walked out of the room, she would let him sleep. As she came out of the door, came Patricia. "What is Paddy doing ?" she asked.
- He is sleeping, so be quiet, said Maria Helena.
- Sleeping ?
- Yeah, and he is really cute. He reminds me about a child.
- He was a beautiful child, said Patricia as they walked down the stairs. Naughty, but still adorable. It's along time ago, but it was a wonderful time. I was eight years when was born. Would you like to see some pictures of him as a child ?
- Id love to !

They went to the livingroom, and Patricia found an old photoalbum. Patricia showed her a lot of beautiful pics of Paddy. She had to smile. Paddy was really cute as a little boy. The pics of her husband as a child made her really happy. She thought about him and imagined how his childhood had been like. The pictures taken on the streets made her realise that they came from two different worlds.
Patricia told her about streetlife. About that time when they where touring around Europe in their dobbel-decker-bus. "It was a beautiful time", she said , "but in 1994 it was the end. We had our first concert in Westfalen-Halle in Dortmund. It was in May, but streetlife lasted the whole year. We got more and more fans. Paddy was 16 at that time and the girls really liked him. "Bravo" , started to write about us in 1993. Everything happened so suddenly. 1000 were many people in streetlife, suddenly tenthousands of people came."
- How was it like for Paddy ? Maria Helena was wondering.
- Difficult, said Patricia. Suddenly a lot of girls were screaming for him. He didn't know why. He made music, that's why he didn't like the screaming, but the hysterical girls didn't know.
- Why didn't he tell the fans how he felt ?
- Paddy would never tell the fans about how he felt. He kept it for himself, said Patricia.
- Is it me you are talking about ? said a male voice in the livingroom.
- Paddy, how nice to see you, said Maria Helena.
- Nice to see you too, Crazygirl. What are you doing, guys ? asked Paddy curious.
- We're looking at pictures of you as a child, said Patricia. Would you like to look at the pics of you ?
- Sure, my Crazygirl is here.
- Paddy, is your girl Crazygirl ? , Patricia asked.
- Yes, she is, and I'm really happy to be her boy, he said smiling.

That night were Paddy and Maria Helena lying in Paddy's bed beside each other. They were talking about all the things that had happened so fast. "Paddy," said Maria Helena, " do you really care for me ? I am I the only one for you ?"
- Of course you are, Crazygirl. I love you so deeply. My heart is beating when we're together. Believe me ! he said as he were holding his hands around her.
- My heart is beating for you, too. Paddy, I'm so glad we found each other.

The next morning, as Paddy still was sleeping, Maria Helena was walking in the garden. She thought it was really beautiful. She also visited Paddy's animals. He'd been talking a lot about his animals in Italy and on their honeymoon. She remembered he'd talked a lot about his goats. Heidi who'd had a baby, but he didn't know which sex it was. He told her that he'd been 22 back then.
Maria Helena thought about how nice her life had turned out : from a lot of pain to a lot of happiness. She hadn't seen her old classmates for years. She knew that some of them had died in a car-crash a couple of years ago, but it was people she hated. They'd been drunk and the driver had been really drunk too.

Maria Helena went to Paddy's room, where she found him reading in a book. "Where have you been ?" he asked.
- I've been walking in the garden and talked with your animals.
- Oh, so what do you think about my animals ? he asked curiously.
- They're all really cute, but my favourite is your dog, and he's staying inside. Well, Günther is my fave.
- Nice to hear darling. Personally ; I like them all, said Paddy smiling.

Next day went they for a walk. Paddy showed her his secret, little place in the huge garden.Behind some huge bushes were a little water. It was rather difficult to find, and Maria Helena understood that it was the perfect place to be alone with the thoughts.
-I am the only one in my family who knows about this place, he said. I`d like to share it with you, Crazygirl.
-Oh, Paddy, she said. It's so beautiful here.You must really love me. I understand it now.
They sat down by an old tree. Paddy held his arms around her shoulders. Paddy gave her a soft kiss on the lips. Maria Helena thought that she was in Heaven.
- Crazygirl, Paddy said after the kiss. I've got another secret I`d like to share. It's inside this tree. He showed her a box which laid inside a hole in the tree.
- This is were I keep all my secret notes. If I feel down, I write in a little book and put them in this little box.
He found a yellow paper from the box, and began to read : "Why am I so lonely in this world. It seems like the rest of the world thinks I'm a happy boy, but I'm not. I try so hard to show a happy face, but my heart is lonely. I wish I could find a girl to spend the rest of my life with. A girl who doesn't look at me as a star, with lots of money. A girl who loves me for the person I am." I've found this girl, you ; Crazygirl.
- Oh, Paddy. You make me so happy. You are so kind to me and you make me forget about the past.
- Speaking about the past. Tell me something about your past. Did you have a lot of friends, many boyfriends and happiness. That's how "normal" people's lives seem to be in my eyes, said Paddy.
- NO ! It was the opposite. You have no idea of how many times I've thought about suicide, said Maria Helena.
- Suicide ? Why ? asked Paddy.
- Dear, I was quiet, shy and that's why people started to bully me. Paddy, my life was a living hell. Now are some of those who bullied me dead. They died in a car-crash. They were all drunk as they drove home from a party.
- Crazygirl, you're 23 now. How old were the people who got killed.
- 17 and 18. I remember I couldn't believe it. I also remember that I didn't cry. To me it didn't matter. Maybe they're in hell now. I hope so…
- In Hell ?!? Wow, you're really honest.
- Paddy, Maria Helena asked. Do you think I'm too honest ?
- No, you're not ! I like honest girls, answered Paddy.
Maria Helena and Paddy sat beside each other for a long time. Without saying a word. Looked into eachothers eyes. Suddenly a teardrop fell down from Paddy's eye.
Maria Helena broke the silence : " Paddy, why are you crying ?"
- I miss my mama. I know she's in Heaven, but I can't stop thinking about her, said Paddy as he began to cry.
Maria Helena held her arms around him. She comforted he him and sang some songs for him. She felt like a mother.
- Paddy, remember that I`ll always love you. You take care of me in a way no one has done before. When I'm feeling sad are you always there for me.
- I can't stop thinking about my mother. Maria Helena I'm so sad. It comes and goes this sadness, you know. Sometimes can I be really happy. While sometimes I'm the most lonely and sad person in the world.
- I know that feeling, honey. I've had that feeling many times. Paddy I'm here for you when you need someone to talk to. Please remember that, said Maria Helena.
- I will, dear, answered Paddy with a smile.

That evening were Paddy and Maria Helena sleeping with each other. It happened very suddenly as they were watching TV.
"Paddy, " said Maria Helena, "I have to admit that you really turn me on. I know that we haven't had sex with each other, but I've got this feeling that you're really good in bed."
- You make me hungry for your love , said Paddy. Let's do it right now !
- Paddy let's do it in a strange place. Do you know any ? asked Maria Helena.
- Oh, believe me. I know about a really strange and different place to have sex, said Paddy.
- Where ? Maria Helena could hardly wait.
- In John's studio. It's a really cool place, but we might get discovered…
- It doesn't matter, Paddy. I want you NOW !

They ran down to John's studio and put off all their clothes in a hurry. Paddy was really horny and he could hardly wait. He was very excited, `cause he knew that Angelo had been discovered while having sex with his ex-girlfriend.
- Paddy, said Maria Helena. No foreplay. They're boring ! Do it NOW !
Paddy and Maria Helena melted together, and they couldn't believe it. As they were having it really good behind some microphones, could they suddenly hear some voices : "…yeah, I'm going to record that song "Little child", tonight", said a low, male voice.
Oh, holy shit, thought Paddy. I hope Angelo doesn't discover us now.
- Crazygirl, we have to hide, whispered Paddy. Angelo is going to record his new song. I had forgot it.
- What ? It can't be true? What do we do with the clothes. ? They're outside this room, asked Maria Helena.
- Let's just hide, he said. Behind these pillowcase.
They ran to the pillowcase to hide. "I want some pillows", said Angelo, " I want to sit on them and sing." He went to the pillowcase.
Then he suddenly started to laugh. "Barby, look ! It's Paddy and his girl ; naked ! "
- Angelo, that's not funny ! said Paddy angrily.
- It is funny ! You're really horny today, aren't you ?
Paddy looked down at his private parts. Embarrassed.
- Paddy, I thought you knew that this wasn't the best place to have sex, said Barby.
- It's at least better than get discovered by the whole family, sis.

Nine months past, and one day Maria Helena gave birth to a little girl. Paddy couldn't believe that they had a child. He was really happy and sang for the little girl. They shared the work equally, so they both could relax and be together with their friends.

Today was Paddy a home with his little girl. They'd moved from Gymnisch and were now living in a little house in France. The little baby was laying in his arms as he sang a lullaby. He'd always dreamed of becoming a father ; and now he was.
Maria Helena came home late that night. She'd been out with her friends at a concert and she was pretty tired as she came home. She found them in bed ; sleeping. Paddy was holding the little girl in his arms. Maria Helena kissed her husband on the cheek. He was looking really innocent. She was really tired , and after a cup of hot chocolate, she went to bed.
Paddy woke up in the middle of the night, `cause he'd heard the phone ringing. Who is calling so late ? he thought. He ran to the phone ; it was Barby. "Hi, it's Barby , " said the crying voice.
- Barby, what has happened ? he asked.
- Mapa and Jimmy got killed in a carcrash…
- WHAT ?!? Nooo ! Tell me it's not true, said Paddy crying.
- Paddy, the rest of the family want you to come over here, said Barby.
- I`ll take the first plane to Germany tomorrow, said Paddy. Still crying.
- You don't have to. We've sent a plane. It'll be at the airport in 15 minutes. Paddy I have to go now. Please tell your wife, said Barby, really sad. Then she hung up.
Paddy ran up to his two girls. "Wake up ! We have to go to Germany now ! " said Paddy crying.
- What has happened ? And why are you crying ? asked Maria Helena.
- Mapa and Jimmy got killed in a carcrash. We have to drive to the airport NOW !

They found some clothes in a hurry and drove to the airport, where a private-jet was waiting for them.
Paddy was crying all the time. He couldn't stop. Maria Helena was also crying, but she had to take care of two persons she really cared for, so she had to take it easy.
- Dear, how could this happen ? asked Paddy , while they were sitting in the plane. While were having a good time… It's terrible !
- I know Paddy, but you couldn't do anything. Please, don't blame yourself.

The plane came to Cologne after a short time, and they drove to the castle where Kathy, John, Patricia, Joey, Barby, Maite, Maite, Angelo and Sean were waiting for them.
It was very silent in the huge castle. They were all really sad. Paddy asked Barby if they could go to her part of the castle and talk for a while. Maria Helena talked with the family and said that she wanted to help them in the castle. She knew how hard it was to accept the death of people you really cared for.

Meanwhile were Barby and Paddy in Barby`s livingroom. They drank tea a burned candles. Paddy were crying all the time. He wanted to see the dead bodies of his father and brother, but he knew that he couldn't see them until the next day.
Barby and Paddy were together the whole night. Paddy felt like a child again. He needed someone who could take care of him in a way that reminded him of his mother ; Barby was that person. He and Barby were soulmates ; even though they didn't look they were having a lot in common, they had been sharing intimate secrets the whole life. If one of them had problems or a difficult time, the other could help that person and cheer it up.
Barby and Paddy ended in watching pictures in Barby`s bed. The tears came everytime they saw a picture with Jimmy and Mapa.
- Do you remember streetlife, Paddy ? asked Barby.
- How can I forget that time ? It was really a wonderful time, but now it's over ten years ago. Closer to 14, said Paddy.
- I remember how you used to act on stage. You were happy. People could see that you were having a good time.
- Your dancing is what I remember the most. It was really amazing to watch you, said Paddy. He had to smile, even though he was sad.
They continued to watch pictures till late in the night. Paddy was wondering if he could stay with Barby for the rest of the night.
She said it was OK, `cause she had missed her brother and she really needed her soulmate after her older brother and father had been killed. Her little brother took care of her, and she took care of him. It had been like that since the day he was born. Barby spent a lot of time with her brother as a child. As they grew up and became teenagers, they were becoming more different from each other on the outside, but not on the inside. In that time when Paddy was smiling and laughing on stage, while Barby stood in the background the most of the time, had they realised that they were soulmates.

One day after a concert had Paddy been crying while he was in his hotelbed. He wish he could talk with someone, but he knew that the others were sleeping. Suddenly he heard a knock on the door. "Paddy, can I come in ?" asked Barby. He had opened the door. Barby could see that he was crying, though he was trying to hide it. "Paddy, why are you crying ?" had she asked him.
- I'm so lonely , and I'm tired of acting on stage. I try to smile and make them laugh, but I'm so sad after I lost my best friend, said Paddy.
- I know, Paddy. You've been so quiet lately. Even at concerts are you not the same, said Barby. You hide the true Paddy behind a mask.
- How can you know so much about me ? We haven't talked much with each other in the last few days. You are talking with your friends on the phone a lot, and if you don't do that, are you probably writing another poem about your boyfriend, said Paddy.
- I can see it in your eyes. They don't shine as bright as they used to do, said Barby. She held her arms around her brother. Paddy gave her a weak smile.
- How can I find a new friend ? asked Paddy. I don't know what to do. Maybe it would be easier if we weren't famous.
Barby didn't know what to say. She knew that Paddy's last girlfriend had been lying to him and that she'd only been his girlfriend because he was the famous Paddy Kelly. She knew that he felt betrayed. After a while she finally said : " Paddy, I know how you feel. You're going through a tough time right now. I also know that you're really mad at your ex-girlfriend."
- How do you know that I'm really pissed off, sis ? asked Paddy.
- Well… I found this paper in your bed in the tour-bus, said Barby. I was going to throw it away, but I was curious. I've read it. You really hate her.
- You've read something that belong to me, said Paddy. Why ?
- Because I was worried, said Barby. That's all. You're my little brother and I donut want you to keep all your feelings hidden from me. I know you better than any other in the world. Do you think you can read the little text for me? I think it would be good for you.
Paddy began to read : " I hate you ! You and I were meant for each other ; that's what I thought. It all was a fucking lie, `cause you only cared for my money and fame !!! You said that you loved me, but you didn't ! I hate you and I hope you'll burn in Hell ! I'm glad I found out that you didn't love me pretty fast ; after a month ! I HATE YOU !!! I'm sick of little liars like you ! "
- Are you still mad ? asked Barby.
- No, I'm sad. Sad because she lied to me.
That's how they became closer to each other.
It was many years ago now, but they both could remember this special day.

Paddy was really tired, and he suddenly fell asleep in Barby`s arms.
The next morning woke Paddy up in Barby`s bed. At first he was wondering why he was staying in Gymnisch, but suddenly he remembered it all. He ran down to the kitchen after he'd been to the bathroom.
Barby was having breakfast. Paddy began to cry. Barby gave him a big hug. She had been over at her sisters and brothers, and she told Paddy that they were going to plan the funerals. Paddy was still in shock. He just wanted to weep. He ate a tiny sandwich, he wasn't hungry. Then he went to Barby`s room and put on his clothes.
Paddy had to see the others. Barby came with him.
It was quiet in the livingroom. Everyone was sad. Paddy crying in a corner. He stood against the wall. Maria Helena saw him, but she knew that he wanted to be there without her. She took care of their little baby, Nora.
In the afternoon were the funerals planned, and they could finally relax.

Paddy went to his secret place. It was so peaceful. Paddy thought about the old days, how naughty he used to be as a kid and about his mother, father and brother. He looked up at the skies while
imagine their life in Heaven.

Two weeks past, the funerals were over and Paddy, Maria Helena and Nora were at home in France. Paddy tried again to smile, but everytime he was smiling it felt like a fakesmile. Maria Helena felt sorry for him and she was trying to make him feel better, but it was really hard. "Leave me alone ! " was his answer. "I want to be alone." "I want to help you, honey. That's all ", said Maria Helena. "Besides that is Nora missing her dad."
- I'm coming, dear. I really miss our little child, said Paddy.
- Paddy, I've gone through some f the same things as you, and I understand how you feel, but you can't stay in your room forever, said Maria Helena. You're my Paddyboy and you're Nora`s dad. Think
about it. You're a lucky man.
- I guess I am, answered Paddy. You're the love of my life. I've always wanted a women like you.
- Paddy, why don't we sing together for our baby ? asked Maria Helena. You have such a great voice and I love to sing.
- Which songs do you think we should sing for her ? Paddy asked. I really like the song "Over the rainbow". It's like a prayer.
- I love that song, too, said a smiling Maria Helena.
Then they sang the song for Nora. Paddy closed his eyes and became one with the song. He was thinking about his Crazygirl and Nora.
Maria Helena was thinking about the past, which had given her a lot f pain. She looked at Paddy. He gave her the best feeling in the world.

That night told they each other about their childhood. Paddy had a lot of funny things to tell from he was two until he turned four. As he was going to tell about his life at the age of five, he suddenly stopped.
- What's wrong, honey ? asked Maria Helena.
- Hold your arms around me, was Paddy's answer. Then he began to cry…She hugged him. He was crying like a child.
- I miss my mama. I know she's in Heaven, but I can't help it ; I miss her, said Paddy. Still crying.
- Paddy, I know you do. You miss your mama, but you're not the only one in the world who has lost a very important person. I lost my best friend in my horrible teens.
- You mean a lot to me, Crazygirl. We're lovers, friends and soulmates at the same time. It's a wonderful feeling. If only this pain would go away.
- Once I was watching "Full House", it was said that this pain never goes away. I guess it's true. I remember I was crying when they were talking about how it is to loose a person who means a lot to you, said Maria Helena. Paddy, you'll meet your mama, papa and brother in Heaven. Meanwhile are you having a life with your own family.

Two years past and one summer were Paddy and Maria Helena in Brazil.
Nora stayed at Gymnisch with her uncles and ants and their children.
Paddy wanted to go to the rainforests. He found the nature really beautiful.
- Maybe we should rent a tent and sleep in the rainforest for one night, said Paddy one day as they were shopping in Rio de Janeiro.
- It sounds pretty exciting to me, dear. We can make love under the trees and watch the stars…As long as I don't have to cook anything ! said Maria Helena.
- What about tomorrow ? We don't buy any food, `cause we'll find fruit and vegetables in the jungle, said Paddy.
- No, Paddy. We have to buy some food. We don't know what you can eat and not eat, said Maria Helena. By the way ; it sounds exciting to sleep in a tent. I haven't done that since I was a child.

The next day were Paddy and Maria Helena in the rainforest. It was very hot, and Maria Helena found it a bit too hot.
- Are you sure we should do this ? asked Maria Helena, as they were resting for a while.
- Sure. Isn't this fun ? asked Paddy. He didn't really cared at the moment, `cause he needed to find a place where he could pee.
- Crazygirl, I`ll be back in a few seconds ; I have to pee.
Paddy went behind an old, dead tree. Maria Helena could hear the sound of him peeing. Paddy came back after a few seconds. He was singing , and in a good mood.

They'd found a nice place to camp late in the evening. Maria Helena was tired and hungry. Paddy was glad he finally could make some food and relax.He made a fireplace and found some meat they'd brought with them. Maria Helena found some vegetables she knew they could eat and water from the river. Paddy got it, and he made a delicious meal.

That night were Paddy and Maria Helena making love. They made love in a water and enjoyed every minute of it. They felt so free and nobody would disturb them in their act. They gave each other their love and felt extremely happy for being together this way. Fishes were swimming around them and the stars were shining.

The next morning was extremely hot. Paddy felt sick and wanted to go back to the hotel. His stomach was hurting and he was crying like a child.